So it’s been a while hasn’t it? It’s August, I haven’t wrote here since January, wow, I hadn’t realized it was that long, does it matter though? Not much has changed, gotten worse actually, but that’s life I guess.

At this point I can barely use my left arm, hurts all the time, it’s a deep pain like the bone hurts, since February actually, just picking up my coffee cup hurts, oh well.

My right arm is like numb, or not numb, it’s pins and needles like it’s asleep, but it’s all the time.

Everything else is the same I guess, still have to use cane, still fall down randomly for no reason, still can barely walk up or down steps because of pain.

Still depressed, still miserable, depression is actually worse now honestly. I guess I haven’t wrote in so long because I just don’t want to talk about it, don’t want to seem like I’m whining. I’ve been thinking about writing here but just have no motivation, I just don’t care really, and I don’t think anyone else does either.

Oh well, whatever, till next time….