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I Just Want Revenge

Been a while since I posted anything here, I’ve got a lot on my mind and a lot going on in my life and I’m really depressed honestly but whatever.

I’ve got a birthday coming up in a week actually and I’m getting older and it makes me think of things I’ve missed in my life and one of them is revenge on those who have wronged me.

There are so many people that have screwed me over in my life and it’s my fault I know it, I’m what you would call a ‘nice guy’ so there are people who happily took advantage of that and then there are those who did things to me that were out of my control just because they could.

I want revenge, I want them to suffer, sadly a few of them have already died and all I can do is hope they are suffering and burning in the fires of hell for what they’ve done and how they’ve lived their pathetic lives, because I wasn’t the only one they hurt.

There’s a special place in hell for people who take advantage of other people I’m sure of that, endless suffering I would hope.

With all I’ve been through I’ve learned to hate people and not trust people anymore and it seems every time I try to open up and make friends I get let down and disappointed yet again.

Such is life I guess.

 

Having Carpal Tunnel Syndrome Sucks

So I’ve had carpal tunnel syndrome for years in left and right wrists, had symptoms etc but it finally got really bad late last year I guess on the right. I was in so much pain that I would wake up screaming in the middle of the night, no joke here, no exaggeration, I had to find funky sleeping positions just to be able to get a couple to maybe a few hours sleep because of the pain and sometimes I wouldn’t sleep at all.

I Miss My Wife and My Life

It’s only been not quite a month since I found out my wife was cheating on me and that she was engaged to another man but I miss her and I miss my life with her. I think maybe it’s I miss the future; I’m thinking about what would or could have been as I never thought of this ever happening. This totally blindsided me honestly, I did not expect this at all, I think I might still be in shock.

Long Time No Write…

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It’s been a really long time since I’ve wrote anything here, wow… I haven’t been doing much, sleeping, or actually trying to sleep because I really don’t sleep anymore. A  couple or maybe a few hours each night, usually 2-3 hours if that, but it’s broken sleep and no straight through.

Suicide’s an Alternative

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I haven’t been writing much here or anywhere really for a long time as I’m dealing with a lot of bad shit in my life and battling depression I guess you could say, not that anyone really gives a shit really about what I have to say so it probably doesn’t really matter if I write or not, no one would miss me I’m sure…